Why Halle Berry is my Idol.....

For the record, she always was. I've always loved her. When I had short hair, it was her picture I took to the salon. When I wanted long and curly hair (*cough*weave*cough), it was her picture I took to the salon. Now that I have a more natural (albeit darker than my own) brown color hair, you guessed it.... I took her picture to the salon. I've always loved her as an actress and a person. She just seems so beautiful and so real. She's always been the actress I've wanted to mold my career after. I STUDIED her interview on Inside The Actor's Studio. No one is perfect (except for like De Niro who I've never seen make a bad movie, lol); of course a few of her movies have been awarded Razzies but she keeps on trying. I soooooo heart her.

But this video totally made my day. When I grow up, I want someone to create a dance about me too! lol.

Fuck It- I'm ready to Leave

With the execption of the love my life (my grandmommy), a few good friends and even fewer family members, ain't shit left for me in miami. I'm ready to leave. If you're been reading my blog, you'd know what i mean. I'm pretty sure I can be as productive (if not more) in California. My family doesn't respect my craft or consider this a real job (no surprise there). Even if I'm not successful over there, I think I just need to get away (cut the umbilical cord! lol). I have to do this. For me. For my sanity. For all the people that always wonder "what if" and warn me never to make the same mistake. For the few people that support me and would hate to see me throw in the towel so soon. Throw in the towel? I can't quit now. I have to do better. I'm going to set up some kind of link to accept donations to fund my relocation there. I just have to figure out how to post it on this blog or make a link. (If you know how to do that, contact me too). Please ask me from time to time, what they can do to help me pursue my dreams. Well, here's your chance....

Entourage Episode

It Read:

So we are looking for models in an upcoming episode of Entourage. The models will play models in this episode. If the director is interested the talent will be flown to LA for the shoot The episode shoots in LA June 17- June 27.



ORLY? And yesthefuckIdid submit my picture. I know I'm trying to compete against a Ferrari with a Geo, but who cares. Obviously, if, they're looking in Miami, they probably want some gorgeous-brick-house-asian-island-hispanic-black-GODDESS that would make the most devout Christian go lez, but who cares. I'm tired of looking at castings and saying I myself "I don't fit that role". :-( FUCK THAT!!!! Let the fucking director tell me no! If I don't submit my pics then it's an automatic no regardless. At least if I submit my pics, the director will see then. And while I may not be the sexy, sultry, vixen they need for this episode, maybe the next episode will feature "the girl next door" type and I may have a shot.....

I'm stand on the edge, trying to take a leap of faith..... Jump, bitch, jump....

And so it begins.......

Hi. I don't know what I'm doing here but hopefully I'll figure it out on the way. I am, for all intents and purposes, an actress. I've been wanting to start a blog since the new year as it marks so many changes in my life. I'm hoping this blog will do a few things. One, I want to use it to chart my successes and failures. I want to be able to look at everything I do from now on and figure out how I can improve. Two, I'm hoping it can be therapeutic in a sense. I don't have many people to talk to about my goal and aspirations and I figure I'm boring the shit of out the few supporters that I do have. And finally, Three, I'm hoping YOU, the reader, will read my blogs and also provide feedback on what I may be doing wrong and how I can improve. This should be interesting to read, lol, I'll try to keep the sob stories and rants about me not getting picked of a role to a minimum.

In any event, before this gets too long and it starts to read like a boring ass acceptance speech from the Oscars, I'll end it now. I just want to thank you so much for taking the time to read this. Hopefully, you'll become on of my supporters and be there with me when times are good and also to put my ass in my place when I'm dead ass wrong. That's what friends are for, right?

So are you ready? Let's go!